May be...

May be, just may be all I need is some time,

Time to calm this storm within me,

Let the dust settle down,

To see the damage more clearly.

May be, just may be for once let them be,

The strong gushes of family pressure,

The society’s benchmarks of what’s ideal,

The sand glass of age moving speedily.

May be, just may be for once see me,

Without your preconceived notions,

Don’t judge me on where I have stumbled,

Focus on the fact that I stand tall still.

May be, just may be try and be there,

You don’t need to agree or understand,

This is my journey and I’ll find my way,

Don’t try to lead me.

May be, just may be become the anchor of my ship,

My questions are not looking for your answers,

And even if life’s thunder strikes me down,

All I need is for you to just hold me,

Nothing more, nothing less,

Just be…

Dreams and uncertainty

We’ll leave this town baby you and I,

In search of our paradise.

Nothing to fear, with love by our side,

We’ll leave this town baby you and I.

Two weeks left for us to go,

My bags are packed, and your wheels all set to roll.

We are sitting at the diner, with drinks in our hands,

I raise a toast to our adventure; you look away from my eyes.

One week to freedom, I breathe in the fresh air,

You sit by my side under a cloud of despair.

So, I hold your hand and look you in the eye,

I ask for a reason, you say you are unaware.

I walk up to your door, with suitcase in my hand,

You greet me with a smile that spells goodbye.

We drive to the gas station, with just my suitcase in the trunk.

I buy a single ticket to my paradise.

I’ve left this town baby, it was just me

In search of my paradise.

With everything to fear, just hope by my side,

Left this town and my baby behind.

I’ll live our dream to the t,

For I am still the same gal you met over a drink.

With time you changed, it wasn’t me,

All you left me were some dreams and uncertainty.

When my life froze

The sun rises and sets every day,

Yet I don’t feel the ushering of a new day.

The world moves past me in vigour,

Yet my breath is shallow, there is no change in me.

The numbers change in the calendar,

Yet there is no newness it brings for me.

The world is brimming with stories,

Yet I am deaf to the million dreams.

Your smile is the sun shine that breaks my dawn,

Your touch sets motion to my life.

Your voice gives life to new stories each day,

Your laughter resonating a million dreams.

Without you meanings are lost to me,

Without you the purpose I cannot see.

Just the sense of standing still,

Waiting for the day you will come and set me free.

Yet to complete...

I am trying everything within my reach,
To maintain a distance that's more than a feet.
I have placed my heart in a fortress heavily guarded,
But your smile has eroded its walls and found me defenseless.

Like a junkie on a high I am addicted,
Planning my next fix of the drug named you.
Aware of all its fatal consequences,
I know there is no Rehab yet to get over you.

The silent voyager

Travelling in the sea for endless years,

The sails are tattered yet fighting its fears. 

A day of shine and nights full of storm,

The ship silently carries on.

In search of shore for eternity,

Its lost its captain and its crew.

Yet it travels the lonely stretch,

To mend what little of it is left.

With everything lost to the sea,

It belongs to nothing, nothing belongs to it.

The termites of melancholy feeding on it,

This ship is doomed to be forever lost in sea.  

Beyond the eyes

A blank sheet of paper staring back at me,
The words but seem shackled to my heart.
A wide open road calling me ahead,
My feet but seem glued to where they are.
There is hope and faith waiting across the street,
The barbwires of fear but seem to hold me.
 I paint a smile and put on my dancing shoes,
The showers of tears but seem to expose the gash on my face.
I cover myself with the cloak of prayer,
The winds of hurt but seem to penetrate my soul.
So I play the role of a vagabond,
Conceal my scars with the colours of laughter,
Waiting for someone that can see beyond the exterior,
The eyes of presumption but seem to be waiting to disappoint me yet again.

Rain and Shine

The sun is shining and the clouds are gone,
I feel the warmth smiling down on me.
The wind whispers sweet nothings,
The daisy seems to dance for me.

 I step ahead and join the fun,
Jive to the rhythm of your heartbeat.
And that’s when I lose my step,
As shadows make their presence felt.

The snow has melted and spring is here,
There is colour sprinkled everywhere.
Butterflies flutter in my heart,
As you wrap your arms around me.

I close my eyes and dream away,
Your voice a lullaby calming me.
And that’s when I startle myself awake,
For I’ve run out of places to hide shattered dreams.

I wish I could capture these moments in a picture,
I wish I could find the perfect words,
But chances are no longer for me to take,
And this wall around me even I cannot break.